I know you read the symptoms that I was having and to top it off, I was extremely emotional for the latter part of the day. It could have been particular conversations, could have been that my body just felt so awful that it needed the release. Either way, I cried all the way through my commute after work and just wanted to crawl into my bed directly upon arriving home. But something stopped me. Louder than the music, louder than my own cries, behind my tear-drenched cheeks something whispered, "fight it."
Fight against wanting to hide from the world.
Fight against wanting to sleep my way through it.
Fight wanting to cancel my evening plans.
Fight against wanting to shut everyone out.
Fight against feeling sorry for myself.
Fight against pouting no matter how shitty I feel.
So, I didn't go home. I instead cleaned myself up, and drove to where I needed to go. Emotionally I was drained and so the night sort of numbly went by, but I kept myself away from curling up into the fetal position under my blankets and that in it of itself was a great feat.
Today's symptoms are:
-foggy brained
-brain zaps
-dizziness
-eye shakes
-hot flash (CONSTANT)
-loopiness (but not as much as yesterday)
also, these omega fish oils are giving me the bubble guts and cramps. I should have gradually gotten back to taking them but instead i went straight into taking three in the morning, 2 midday and 1 at night and it is NOT sitting well in my tummy. Lol
On top of feeling slightly more energetic and coherent today than I did yesterday, I also just had my review at work and it went very well. Yet another reason to at least smile.