Leviticus 27:32 - And concerning the tithe of the herd, or of the flock, [even] of whatsoever passeth under the rod, the tenth shall be holy unto the LORD.
Attempting to remedy the situation she thought of running to someone, someone that could offer her calm, a warm hug, a heart beat. But those that were in reach would not suffice this time around. The mere thought of someone reaching out to her only set off her temper as she invisioned her wrath taking out large buildings, sturdy oaks and anything and anyone who would dare near themselves. For the only person that could bring back what her broken soul ached for was gone long ago. She knew this. She hated this. And if the world had fallen apart all around her, she would have not noticed. In that hour of time that she sat balled up in the driver seat of her car she would have heard nothing, nothing past the grieving of her fatigued, fragile body.
This, my friends, was me on the first day decreasing yet another 10% to 37.5mg of Effexor (Venlafaxine). Needless to say, it was not the best of my best. I do believe that the heaviness that I felt yesterday was my lowest point since beginning my weaning process and though my fears, my disillusionments, and my brokenness was heightened to a much more extreme place, I am aware that the root of those feelings are very much real and should be acknowledged and worked through.